The concept of choosing a word or mantra of the year is fairly new to me. However in the world of bullet journalling and goal setting. Word of the year seems to be very popular. I found this article Word Of The Year Ideas For 2019 by The Goal Chaser very useful when it came to choosing my word and for understanding the concept behind focusing on one specific word to help a person achieve their goals. After some deliberation I decided my word of 2019 is courage.
Some Words Stood Out.
As I was reading through the article on The Goal Chaser, I had a few ideas of words that I might want to use, however I sat and stared at the image they had created with possible words. Courage was one of the first ones that stuck out to me along with consistency, balance, believe and preserver. All of these words have meaning to me. As I am living with chronic and mental illness I find it difficult to remain consistent, find the right balance in life, believe in myself and preserver with pushing through my pain.
My chronic pain stops me from doing new things, getting involved in school activities or going on fun outdoor trips with David and Alex. I mentioned in my 2019 A New Year, New Adventures and Challenges Lie Ahead post that I wanted to do more as a family which is going to test me.
Finding My Courage
Courage for me isn’t about jumping out of a plane or swimming with sharks. It’s about overcoming my fear of any pain that might be caused from normal day to day activities that many families do.
Having a chronic illness like fibromyalgia means that I’m going to have a certain amount of pain to deal with each day. I can’t remember a time when I wasn’t in pain! I have to learn to push passed the voices that are telling me not to do anything that is going to wipe me of energy and cause pain which my future self will struggle to deal with and shove me back to my original mindset of not wanting to do anything, go anywhere or be present in my. families lives.
It’s Not Going To Be Plain Sailing
The reality of my situation and illness is that there are going to be times, where I will falter, where I won’t want be able to go out. Where I will need to rest and stay in bed. However instead of beating myself up about it, letting the mum guilt take hold. I will tell myself that resting is needed. For anyone with chronic illness, for any over worked parent taking time out to rest is a form of self care. If we look after ourselves and take that much needed me time our families and ourselves will benefit from that.
Do you have a word of the year? I’d love to read it in the comments and your plans on how you plan to use that word.
As always thank you for reading.