Depression Fucking Sucks 

I wrote this on my personal Facebook page. I wanted friends and family to know what’s going on with me or others who suffer depression. I feel that I need to share it to a wider audience that depression fucking sucks.

Some folks might not want to hear or read about mental health but it is a fact that it exists and is sucks. We need to speak more openly about it without fear of being judge or told to cheer up or buck up.

If it were that easy there wouldn’t be so many people suffering mental health issues.

Some people don’t understand that even though you have a wonderful family you get depressed, you can’t explain why your feeling this way, but you do and you hate yourself for it.
Depression doesn’t just mean that you are sad. You feel empty, numb, full of self loathing, isolation, anxiety and guilt, guilt for feeling that way, guilt for not being present and happy when you know you should be. Like there is no light at the end of the tunnel and that you are alone.

I speak from experience. At the moment I am the worst I have ever been with my mental health. I feel so guilty that I cannot laugh and smile with alex or when I do it’s false. I feel guilty that I’m placing all of this on Davids shoulders. I don’t want to be this way but it’s who I am.

I know deep down that this is temporary and it will pass.

If you are going through a similar situation please know that there are people who love you and are there for you.

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