2017 – The Rollercoaster Year

2017 has been a year of highs and lows personally but also for all of us. There has been so much atrocity this year it almost seems unreal some of the situations that have happened. But as the year comes to an end I wanted to share some of my own personal highs and lows from the year a lot of us wish we could forget.

2017 Buckle Your Seatbelt

The Intentions

I started 2017 with the greatest intentions to get out more, see old friends and generally be a the best version of myself Over the year I signed up to my local gym with active Forth. I wrote a few posts about that which you can read here.

I asked for help with my anxiety and started Social Prescribing which was ok at the beginning (you can read about that here)

I was more sociable this year going to a few shows and eating out for friends, then reality struck.

The Reality

Although the year started off great from the outside looking in everything seemed rosey and that life was going according to plan. I enjoyed going to the gym and getting help where I needed it. I loved going to Edinburgh during the Fringe, but inside I was hiding the toll that these activities took toll on me.

My pain was constant with little to no relief I continued to push myself further and further. Meaning that my pain become more and more intense. It got to the stage that I had to stop exercising (I’ve been planning on writing a post on this soon)

Let Me Off This Ride!

2017 has been a difficult year for me mentally and physically. I reached my lowest point yet in my mental health journey. I was so close to giving up. My intrusive thoughts were taking over every aspect of my life. I questioned everything I did and the intentions of other. I doubted my ability as a mother, wife, daughter, friend and human.

It has taken some time but I am beginning to feel like I’m in a better place mentally. I started new medication a while ago and it seems to be working (for now) David and I have been talking about adding to our family. (There will be a post about this in the new year). I can see light at the end of the tunnel. I know that I’m not the worst mother in the world and that Alex is happy and healthy. He doesn’t need to be entertained 24/7 he is learning and laughing and thriving.

Much like exercise I stopped going to my social prescribing sessions. They helped at first, but after a while they became a source of anxiety to me which seemed redundant to go to something that was causing me more anxiety and stress I feel that what I really need is to get actual counselling to get to the root of my problems with anxiety and depression.

2017 has been a hard year for so many and although it has been brutal at some points and I’m glad to see the back of it. I am also thankful for this past year as it has taught me a few things needed life lessons.

I’d like to take a moment to thank everyone who has read, commented and encouraged me this past year. I appreciate each and every one of you.

How was your 2017?

1 thought on “2017 – The Rollercoaster Year

  1. It can be so hard for those of us with chronic illness to listen to our bodies when we really want to do something different. Good for you for being able to adjust to your situation as much as possible. I hit a very low point with my mental health this year too. I’ve been on a new medication for a little over a month now and I feel much better than I did.

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